Stop judge

I love many things in the world. My family of course, even though I can hate them many times too but one thing is for sure, I will always love them no matter how much I can hate them. I have a mother, who am I very close to. She understands me and doesn’t judge me. I have a father, who I can fight with a lot. Don’t get me wrong I love him but he can be a jerk sometimes. Then I have a big sister, only two years older than me. Where she is I don’t know, she walked away one day I never looked back. I used to love her but right now I can’t seem to. She just left with no goodbye or even a letter. Just packed her things and walked out the door. I hate her for that. Leave the rest of the family on the problems.
I guess this family have had problems as long as I can remember. Money problems, family stuff problems, illness problems etc.
My mother is sick; she has diabetes and can only see out her right eye.
I am sick too; I have Tourette, one of the bad ones. For those who doesn’t know what it is....it’s when I make weird moves not willing of course. It’s also called tics. I have tics in my neck, right arm/shoulder and sometimes left too. My legs sometimes. I too I have slight OCD so that sucks.
Every single day is a fight against my illness. Every fucking day and that sucks! That truly just sucks. Every single day I ask myself why me? Why do I have this illness, why do I have to make weird moves in public? What do they think of me? What do the people think of me, when they see me make those moves?
She is weird...
Ha ha, she have tics!
Why do she do that?
OMG!
Ha!
So weird...
That looks funny...

Is that what they think of me? I hope not but I’m sure they do. Because people judge other before they even know them or at least give a chance to know them. People are too fast to judge others, all too fast and I hate it. Why do some people have to be afraid of what others think? They shouldn’t have to do that but they do, because when you’re different others judge and that’s how the world is and I am pretty sure it won’t change.
No am certain it won’t change. If it should change it will only change to the worst.

I hate....life really sucks for some people and am I one of them.